Wednesday, November 17, 2010

Integrity II

The past few months have offered many opportunities to face familiar old demons and fears. As I have been merrily singing another's song I lost the beat to my own.

I followed the worn down path in front, as my face which has been drawn to the ground wearily like an old ripened pear in the lonely orchard.

Marriage offers so much, but really, there is very little.

Solitude has filled my days and nights for the past five years. If you knew me at all, you would know that I live for interactions with PEOPLE.


Regardless, in the solitude, I continue to search for the drum beat back into my own swan song.



Solitary Bench, #2176

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Details: December 30, 2008; Canon 20D; f/8 @ 1/200 sec; —1 EV; ISO 400; 28mm.

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Monday, November 1, 2010

Integrity

Having integrity in relationship looks different depending on what your personal values are regarding relationship.

I am in a relationship with my husband who's values and beliefs in relationship are very different than my own. We have different pictures, languages and cosmologies about life and love.

We don't have to speak the same language or be moved by the same art to connect at the heart chakra. We simply need to slow down and listen to the other person's dreams and desires.

When I spend time listening to my husband, I realize I know the words to his song. I realize I have been humming that tune for a long, long time.



Columbia Piper, #1605

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Details: November 15, 2008; Canon 20D; f/5.6 @ 1/100 sec; —2/3 EV; ISO 400; 85mm.

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