Simple pleasures include the smell of home brewed Peet's Holiday Blend, the sound of my cats fighting like sisters in a bathroom, and the image of my beautiful daughter cutting heirloom tomatoes in the kitchen.
I am simply having a wonderful holiday season.
I am simply appreciating the blessings in our lives including health, prosperity and love.
I am grateful my parents are still with us, and relatively healthy.
I am grateful my sisters are healthy, even if one of them no longer speaks to me. At least she is alive and well enough to be resentful.
I am also grateful I never gave up on myself.
A friend called me this week because we were supposed to get together Tuesday afternoon. I had too many things on my calendar, as usual. I wanted to "re-arrange" our time. She felt unimportant and told me she was not getting enough time from me. This is not a new complaint for my ears. I have heard this complaint several times, from different sources. I have faced this demon through loved ones eyes and I have made lots of noble declarations about changing how much I try to put into each day. The habit is compulsive business. Do you know about this? Scheduling myself from seven o'clock in the morning until I drop into bed at midnight.
I don't like New Years' resolutions because I think they're bullshit. So, I have decided what I am giving myself for Christmas, and it is simply permission not to be so hard on myself, put less on my calendar and put my needs first and foremost. I want to be a good example of keeping my own well full of water before I try to care for the thirsty masses.
I owe amends to my friends, my family, my creator and myself due to compulsive business. Being purposeful and busy is a good thing. It is whole other problem to run ragged trying to catch up with yourself. 2010 is the year of Simple Scheduling. I will ask myself two questions before I commit myself:
1) Is this necessary right now?
2) Is this activity/engagement/commitment for my highest good?
If the answer to both questions is YES, then "book 'em Danno"~otherwise I will Keep It Simple & preserve my sanity, serenity and self respect.
Cornered/Vector Convergence (Abstract #2471)
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